Wednesday – June 17, 2015

It was kind of shitty of me to start writing here and then stop again for a few days, but as per my usual, life got in the way.  Ha!  I said few days when it was really over 2 weeks.  I suck.  There’s been a lot going on around here.

1.  Still dealing with the wedding of Cheyenne and Alex.  Yes, I wrote it that way even though I know Alex’s name should be first, but I’m pissed off at him.  More on that later.

2.  We had to have Fat Sadie Mae put down.  With her weight we hadn’t realized how large her tumors had grown.  The ones under her rib cage were pushing on her lungs and she couldn’t breathe.  She already couldn’t walk and there were other medical problems too (she took phenobarbital for seizures).  The poor old girl did the best that she could for us, but it was time for us to be unselfish and let her go.  I’m logical about these kinds of things, but these fucking animals take a little piece of my heart every fucking time.

I never did get my laptop moved upstairs (it’s so haaaaaard), but I’m still out here wanting to write.  Apparently these are my baby steps.

Monday – June 1, 2015

When I used to write entries it was always quiet and I could whip out an entry in no time.  Now, I’m in the same room with Shirley and it’s like she never shuts up.  Or she’s yelling at the dogs.  And I do mean YELLING.  I suppose I’ve always just tuned her out when I was younger, but lately…GOD DAMN.  I’m chewing down Xanax just to get through the day (FYI: I take one a day).  The best part?  Peace is deaf and it looks like Sadie has lost her hearing with old age.  They can’t even hear her —- and yet, the yelling continues.

I just told her to knock it off because they’re not going to like that yelling at the nursing home I’m putting her in. Hee!

So how the hell do I plan to do entries?  Easy.  I’m going to go upstairs and do them from my laptop.  Hopefully nobody will follow.  Or yell up the steps.  Fingers crossed.

I’m just going to leave a little juicy tid-bit up here so everyone will know a little bit about what’s been on my mind…I found my biological father/sperm donor and boy, what a doozy that turned out to be!